...even if you really want to. I have errands to run and limited time to run them in, but I can't bring myself to wake him. I remember one of my first posts being about the sleep training we were embarking on. That wasn't the first sleep training we did, and I guess it won't be the last. The truth is, E still doesn't sleep. The past several nights he has woken up at 2:00, 3:00, or 4:00 (after not going to bed until 9 or 9:30) and just been awake for two or three hours. Today he finally went back to sleep just before six, but he was awake again before seven. And now he is asleep in my bed, where I am currently sitting, watching him sleep. He is beautiful when he sleeps. I wish he did more of it.
I am so beyond tired, and I'm tired of being tired all. the. time. I feel like I never accomplish anything, and I'm worried about my health because I can't seem to find the time to exercise. I have made more of an effort to eat healthy, but I fail at that quite often too. I should just make myself exercise, despite being tired. I know that. As it turns out, that's somehow easier said than done. What is this mental block I have? Why can't I seem to accomplish anything?
E's sleep problems are becoming a source of concern to me, since I tend to get frustrated and yell, as I did last night. I keep trying to think of things I might do to help him sleep better. He has a night light. He sleeps with music on. I try to make sure he has enough (or few enough) blankets to be comfortable, since he tends to wake when he's too hot or too cold. Watching him sleep on hubby's pillow, I think that will be my next step. Maybe he'll sleep better with a pillow. After that? Toddler bed? I don't know if I feel ready for that step, but if he will sleep better I might be willing to give it a try. I love this little man more than anything, but boy oh boy does this mama need some sleep!
No comments:
Post a Comment